avoiding His presence

I can't pinpoint the moment it happened but I remember feeling a sudden loss, the loss of the Lord’s presence. I am not naive enough to say that he isn’t there anymore, I know he’s watching but I just can’t figure out from where. At first I thought, okay maybe there’s something I’m supposed to be doing but I’m not doing it, so I tried approaching different scenarios in various manners. After doing this and feeling no sign of Him, I tried approaching Him differently, I meekly asked for His guidance, I praised Him, I begged Him, I broke down in tears to Him and I even shouted at Him in anger. I felt nothing.
Maybe he was taking a vacation, maybe he was tending to more pressing matters, maybe he was abandoning me I thought. What did I do wrong Lord? What did I do right? Where am I supposed to be? Who am I supposed to be?

I’ve now been ignoring Him, or at least ignoring the spiritual void inside of me. I can’t remember the last time I’ve felt like reading scripture or any other Christian literature. Perhaps I am going the right way and that’s why he isn’t ripping me off the path that I’m working toward, things have been working out even though I don’t feel him around, what does this mean?

I’m not looking for answers, I just needed to get this off of my chest. He is somewhere, I just don’t feel it.