Every time people hear that I'm an Aries, they almost always ask me if I really am short-tempered. To be diplomatic, and to be on the safe side, I'd say that I'm different depending who I'm talking to.
Most of what I really want to say is always never said. I'm too worried about how I'll sound rude and how I can't be rude to people I love and care about. However this also results in me acknowledging many stupid comments from people I barely know, and I smile and ignore it. But I just want to go WWE on their ass and throw a chair at them. But thankfully, I'm the type who doesn't take what you think about me into consideration. Ever. I can't even begin to tell you how many times I've been called slow, becos I really hate explaining things to people who have half a grain size for a brain. But, what's that famous old saying? "Common sense isn't so common?" Yup that's it.
I am however, terrible at holding a grudge. I almost always never bitch about people in a serious way, and when I really mean it, I usually tell them. I can admit it is a weak moment as a red blooded female. I have reason to believe, (and of course I will) that I do not bitch without reason. There's this place in my head, where I store nasty things I would just love to bring up about people. And I mean everyone. I would, if provoked, be nasty about any person possible. It's not like I don't accept people as they are, it's just this old habit of wondering over and over again WHY people cannot change. Or are never initiated to, or something like that. When I'm really angry... I will filter out what to say and what not to. It's this wonderful ability I am proud to possess. It's like clockwork in my head, what can be said to whom-what that person's reply can be- what my reply will be after that. It's a carefully planned, yet really fast process. And I always follow it. I will sit on that fence mostly until it is time to lash out. And how. I keep telling myself that I'm logical and that I understand things better than most people. The other half of me is more emotional/empathetic. But of course there's this rather large ego that covers up the emotional part, and I'm very uncomfortable getting soppy or crying in front of people. I'll always be an honest and loyal friend. You can count on that. (Btw you should never take anything I say on here seriously, I just blog what I think most of the time -shrugs-)
Since we are on this subject of how I deal with things, and trust me this is just surface level stuff. While I was subtly gasping for air rather hard on the treadmill today, I was weighing out a few things about myself... and I've narrowed it down to 2 categories....
Type of person I want to be: goes to the gym everyday, runs 2 miles a day, drink lots of water, stretches and does squats, eats a balanced meal, gets 8 full ass hours of sleep
Type of person I am: hasn't ran or done any intense physical exercise in 2 years maybe since jr high, can barely make it up the stairs to the fridge without breathing hard, doesn't drink water for 2 days, gets 4 hours of sleep even though I don't have a job (lol), enjoys cold pizza for breakfast.
Someday's I'm like super woman other days I'm like the bum you invited over for dinner. But hey, I'm not perfect. c(:
I am however, terrible at holding a grudge. I almost always never bitch about people in a serious way, and when I really mean it, I usually tell them. I can admit it is a weak moment as a red blooded female. I have reason to believe, (and of course I will) that I do not bitch without reason. There's this place in my head, where I store nasty things I would just love to bring up about people. And I mean everyone. I would, if provoked, be nasty about any person possible. It's not like I don't accept people as they are, it's just this old habit of wondering over and over again WHY people cannot change. Or are never initiated to, or something like that. When I'm really angry... I will filter out what to say and what not to. It's this wonderful ability I am proud to possess. It's like clockwork in my head, what can be said to whom-what that person's reply can be- what my reply will be after that. It's a carefully planned, yet really fast process. And I always follow it. I will sit on that fence mostly until it is time to lash out. And how. I keep telling myself that I'm logical and that I understand things better than most people. The other half of me is more emotional/empathetic. But of course there's this rather large ego that covers up the emotional part, and I'm very uncomfortable getting soppy or crying in front of people. I'll always be an honest and loyal friend. You can count on that. (Btw you should never take anything I say on here seriously, I just blog what I think most of the time -shrugs-)
Since we are on this subject of how I deal with things, and trust me this is just surface level stuff. While I was subtly gasping for air rather hard on the treadmill today, I was weighing out a few things about myself... and I've narrowed it down to 2 categories....
Type of person I want to be: goes to the gym everyday, runs 2 miles a day, drink lots of water, stretches and does squats, eats a balanced meal, gets 8 full ass hours of sleep
Type of person I am: hasn't ran or done any intense physical exercise in 2 years maybe since jr high, can barely make it up the stairs to the fridge without breathing hard, doesn't drink water for 2 days, gets 4 hours of sleep even though I don't have a job (lol), enjoys cold pizza for breakfast.
Someday's I'm like super woman other days I'm like the bum you invited over for dinner. But hey, I'm not perfect. c(:
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