sitting at work, bored

2 more hours and 30 minutes to go. for me, it seems like 2 years and 30 days. but i love my new job. just need to get adjusted to working late. normally, this wouldn't bother me if i was busy, but since i keep finishing early plus double checking for mistakes plus final checks just incase... it get's boring. that's what i get for choosing repetitive work. ugh. maybe i'll get up and clean something after this. we'll see. in the past 24 hours i got a nosebleed for the first time in maybe 5 years. witnessed someone trying to steal my lunch. and i had an epiphany. also, my mom is pushing me to paint a design on her living room table. i'm so unmotivated to paint. and it's not like i can just paint like some painters. i have to be moved to do something. i work best when my emotions are eff'd up and i can't think. but to paint, like, to just pick up a paint brush and paint... i can't. it's weird to explain and hard to understand for some. if you only knew.