nails did.

Gosh. I feel so conflicted.

Heart vs. Head

Why can’t everything be more simple? Although it is all really simple & I am just complicating it all…



I need to realize that things change and there’s nothing I can do to stop that. I keep expecting everything to just suddenly be like before. I'm so accustomed to the breakup, makeup and repeat cycle. And I keep convincing myself that everytime we get back together it'll be different and it will just work-out. But when you come crawling back, a part of me still believes so I give you a little chance just to have it backfire. I already know it will never work because you don't know what you want. So I'm left there, as your place of comfort to run back to when you can't find me in another. Seriously wanting to move far, far away from Utah. I want a new adventure, a new atmosphere, I want to mingle with some new people, I want to breathe some different air. GAH I just want to forget you, like in Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind... I wish that was real.

Anyway. I'm not really a get your "nails did, hair did, dress & makeup did" kinda girl. I kinda most of the time don't give a flyin' FUUUH. I haven't been wearing makeup at all these past few weeks and some peeps were like, "You look different without makeup, not bad, just different"... uh no shieeet. I just say I'm tired and that usually ends all lame comments.  So like, I didn't go out and pay to get my nails done. I'm proud to say that I did 'em myself. YAYUH. Whilst watching tv too! My older sister bought me a bag full of awesome nail varnish and I couldn't help but go creative... she's so the best. Looking down at my pretty nails makes me happy. I can definitely see why girls do it. It feels nice and girly.